Tag: Life

When Is It Real?

You were that guy I walked past on the street. You were that guy who showed me how to do the dance step. You were that guy I saw for 1.3 seconds before you drove off.

I seem to be obsessed with looking for attractive guys around me, just like my friends. But how do I know when you, “that guy”, are my guy? When we’re sitting next to each other, how do I know that I have feelings for you?

With the constant searching and the stories my friends tell, how do I know that I’m not just making things up, that I not just imaging things?

I tell myself, “I think about you a lot, so my feeling are real.” But am I just subconsciously forcing myself to do so? Am I held captive by my own emotions?

I am confused. I am only feeling this way because I am telling myself that I should. I watch the movies you recommend and force you to watch my favourites as well. But not just the movies are fictional. It’s a vivid fantasy world in my head too. But how do I know when it’s real?

How do I know if I like you?

How?

My Life

Hey there!

My life at this moment does not really exist. I study and study and study some more. But, I only have 4 exams left! I’m so close! After I have survived them, I will try to post more.

But currently, all I do is eat, sleep, and study. Because I’m writing LO tomorrow and don’t have to actually study anything for that, or at least I hope so… I spent the whole afternoon in bed, too tired to sleep. I have been so unproductive today, it’s not even funny. Like, sure, I don’t have to do anything for tomorrow, but that doesn’t mean I don’t have work for next week, right? Yeah, well I’m ignoring that now. This has turned into me just complaining about my work, instead of actually doing it.

At some point in the near future, I will post my wrap up for August, but I didn’t read too much, because school hates me!

I’m going to get some sleep, the more the better, right? How is your life doing lately?

JustMeJuls xx

 

Tiny Update

Hello,

Yes, I changed the theme of my blog. And I really like it. It is so much prettier than the white I had before. I’m still thinking about the background colour… But I like the new design.

I’m not sure if you are able to comment (if you ever wished to do so) on my posts, because I can’t see a comment section thing. So I’ll have to figure that out. Also, I’m not sure if I want the full posts in an endless scroll setup or if I want to make them small excerpts. We’ll see.

Today our teacher told us what we have to do to pass out Abitur, grade 12 basically. It’s like a fail wherever you turn. So so bad. So my friends and I have decided to move to Canada and live there together. So much fun. If at some point I die in the near future, it’s because my Abitur has killed me. Yay.

JustMeJuls xx