Tag: struggles of a teen

When Is It Real?

You were that guy I walked past on the street. You were that guy who showed me how to do the dance step. You were that guy I saw for 1.3 seconds before you drove off.

I seem to be obsessed with looking for attractive guys around me, just like my friends. But how do I know when you, “that guy”, are my guy? When we’re sitting next to each other, how do I know that I have feelings for you?

With the constant searching and the stories my friends tell, how do I know that I’m not just making things up, that I not just imaging things?

I tell myself, “I think about you a lot, so my feeling are real.” But am I just subconsciously forcing myself to do so? Am I held captive by my own emotions?

I am confused. I am only feeling this way because I am telling myself that I should. I watch the movies you recommend and force you to watch my favourites as well. But not just the movies are fictional. It’s a vivid fantasy world in my head too. But how do I know when it’s real?

How do I know if I like you?

How?

Feeling Left Out

Heya!

Recently I was invited to a party. And I really wanted to go, because it’s to celebrate the birthday of two of my best friends! But I can’t go.

On that day I already have something else planned. Something I love and know I’ll enjoy. Where I will spend the whole day with some of my other best friends and my very best friend! I’m only sad because everyone is talking about this party and no one at school has the faintest idea of what I will be doing that day, so I can’t talk to anyone about it.

This is one of the problems when your best friend doesn’t go to the same school as you and you have all these things to discuss, but they’re not there!

Have you ever experienced something like this?

JustMeJuls xx